Sunday, June 19, 2005

The Pain Of The Gods

Human beings are a strange species. What separates us from the lesser animals? Or lesser human beings, for that matter. The level of consciousness of our selves. At every stage of life, we know who we are and in turn our level of consciousness keeps increasing. Doesn't it? It undoubtedly does. As we evolve towards being a fuller human being, our consciousness also evolves.

The Universe is by itself an infinite object of existence to us. Everything in the universe is created and destroyed continuously. So are we. What is the level of consciousness of the atoms that are existing everywhere? What is the level of consciousness of primordial life forms? What is the level of consciousness of lower animals and the higher animals? What is the level of consciousness of human beings? What is the level of Consciousness of the bursting stars?

I can say that every being experiences pain to a certain extent. The being can see the world around itself for what it truly is... A horrible, deep, dark, never ending abyss of pain, misery, hate and death. It saddens me to see so much suffering in the world. I also believe that the amount of Self-awareness is proportional to the pain and suffering we percieve. It is also true that the amount of Self-awareness is also proportional to the amount of happiness we percieve. That's why some humans are more self-aware than others.

But what exactly is this consciousness I talk about? Consciousness is nothing more than the ability to feel pain. Haven't we all observed this? The more we understand the people around us, the more we understand the world around us and the more we understand the Universe we live in, there is an enhanced level of pain. I believe that everything is a balance of the positive and the negative like the Yin and Yang. Some choose to see the positive and some choose to focus on the negative.

If we humans percieve and endure so much pain, how much pain must a higher form of life percieve and endure? How much pain must GOD endure? He must know so much pain, such wide varieties of it that he chooses out different bits and imparts it in his creations for us to experience. For I guess he will see and feel his creation, the Universe, as it is. Nothing but sheer torture and agony of every living form inside the universe, revelations of pain sprawling from everywhere, pain so intense that it burns the flesh on the inside, neverending pain and misery. The universe is nothing but a darkness... a place of Dark Emotions.

An electron inside a computer is unable to realize the pain of it's creator, the programmer, because it does not have the self awareness of being the part of a larger self. Similarly, we... human beings of the Universe cannot experience the pain of our programmer, our god. The Universe is nothing but a program or creation of God... which serves the purpose of sharing his pain.


Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live

-> Audioslave - Show Me How To Live


I pity him. For none of us will ever be able to share his true pain, the one that he cannot share with anyone, for it is the endurance of the gods alone. For only with the highest levels of raw pain can one attain the highest state of consciousness and self-awareness.

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